Day 6: Sigh...

 I wish I could say that this isn't all doom and gloom. It's not supposed to be but I'm exhausted. I have been for soooo long. Since I was a teenager. 

Part of it is that, I'm tired of carrying other people's baggage. You know, the baggage that YOU personally don't have anything to do with but they manage to drop it on you every time you talk to them. You know the type, can't get a word in edgewise, constant drama (not from them but their extended family which of course then trails back.)I should probably rephrase that. I'm tired of HEARING about other people's baggage. I mean, normal levels of drama is well..."normal" and not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about a constant drama lama in the lives of others that you just wish would shit or get off the damn pot. Instead, they cry and whine and kick and fuss, bringing that crap into not just the families lives, but friends and acquaintances as well. And it's especially bad when you want to just say, you know what? I don't care about so and so's drama. I care about you, but I don't want to hear about so and so, any more. Please and thank you.

I am so tired. I've been tired my whole life. Not tired of living, just literally tired. I have so many things I want to do but I'm so tired I just don't have energy to figure out HOW to do them. Or if say I went on a trip. I'd be so exhausted from the actual getting there I wouldn't be able to do much more than sit like a slug.

I am, wholeheartedly, tired of being tired.